Like so many of us, I have difficulty TTC. Neither DH or I could pull it together after our first failed DE cycle. Somehow one of us had the strength to pull the other one up and from then on we were determined.
Thankfully things worked out and we are 32 wks. I know the holidays can really stink when all of this has you in its grip. All I can offer is to really stay close with your spouse and try to give each other some strength. That is the only way we made it through. And I know you can too.
Best to you. Be kind to yourself and if you can't make it to a holiday party, simply bow out. If being around your siblings children is too much- a white lie of being sick on the holiday is not the end of the world. First and foremost- take care of yourself.