Lupron not working...can't even do fresh cycle. Need advice/thoughts/encouragement?

I can't even believe it. I recall reading this happening to Seymo and couldn't believe it...must be one in a million, I thought...

Starting my very first DE cycle at SG and now the Lupron isn't successfully suppressing my completely useless ovaries after nearly 2 weeks. My FSH in my late 30s was in the 80s. I haven't had a period in over a year and now this (and its a useless attempt at ovulation, confirmed by other bloods). Can't move forward with a fresh transfer because it's a shared cycle and they can't hold up the other recipient (understandable). All doc can say is this is bizarre, he doesn't know why, but I have to keep taking it and retesting.

I'm full of anxiety now. They tell me my mock went well and I have no other issues. Since my reproductive system has done nothing but fail me for 4 years, why would I have hope? My DH keeps saying he has hope, but that hope was what kept me from moving to DE a year ago...and now i feel I've lost so much valuable time based on nonsense hope. All I can do is keep thinking the whole thing will fail, because that has been my history. If I have POF so early, and now my body won't cooperate here, what else is going to fail? And knowing that FETs have a lower success rate (looks like 52% v 36% at SG for vitrified), when I finally get to transfer the frozen embryos, why would I feel positive? I know DE isn't guaranteed, but I didn't think I would get clipped at the starting line.

--Does anyone know/has heard of lupron being ineffective long term on someone with my details? Did it cause damage?
--Does anyone know of anyone who has gone on to success despite this kind of thing?
--Presuming I can cycle at some point, and I had 2 frozen blasts, would you recommend transferring both? If they had been fresh, I would've done an eSet, since I'm learnign that for me what can go wrong will (ie, health risks to twins). Now I'm concerned even one "perfect" won't implant.

Any advice? I feel like throwing in the towel and I haven't even gotten to start.

I'm really struggling emotionally. I didn't anticipate this at all...failed transfers, I was sort of anticipating, but not self induced ones. Talking to social workers/therapists doesn't help.