Thanks for the advice.. I like to listen to Joel Osteen. My honey purchased a book of his in CD form. Maybe I can bring them with me to work and listen to them. I am actually not a Nurse, I work in the Outpatient Call Center. I am in college to become an Occupational Therapist. I keep telling myself its for the cause, its for the cause.. My family building depends on it. I am going to look into the DR that you mentionen. My anxiety is soooooo bad it makes me physically sick..There is something scary that is supposed to happen, and I am absolutely dreading it. My hospital is to be bought out by another. When that happens, I may lose my benefits, and obtain there's which is so limited as to where I can go..I wish at times that my niece was 21. Here in NJ donors must be 21. She'll be 20 in August. We have a DR that states he is willing to work with us, but I don't feel like we are ready. We are in the middle of getting a new place, hectic school schedule..Im just so overwhelmed..