Heading out Friday to see Mom, thanks everyone

First of all, thank you all for your incredible support and posts. I can't tell you how much it means to me to have this safe place to work this through, and only you all could really understand what this all means.

I was determined not to walk into the lion's den again. But I called my Mom to tell her how difficult it would be to find a ticket, and I could tell that she really wanted to see me. My Mom is not a demanding person and this is what she wanted.

I booked a ticket to leave this Friday and return Saturday. I will have an afternoon and evening, and all morning and lunch with her. I will tell her that I would really like to spend the time alone with her if possible.

I was able to purchase the ticket with points, and while I will not be here with my husband during some business stuff that is vital to our lives, he supports me.

I will not have to miss any cycle appointments or do terribly complex shots or regimens (just lupron) during travel. I just faxed the final legal contracts and it is all paid for (yikes!). Donor has picked up meds.

My Mom and I have an amazing relationship and talk and spend as much time together as we can, so I must assume that her needing me now is important for her, and perhaps her last wishes. She also knows that even if she gets well enough to live longer, she will not be able to travel, and I will not be able to either if we get pregnant.

Wish me luck.