I"m sorry you are hurting so much. We are all here for you so write us whenever you want. Its a hard thing and its all so fresh for you. I can only say that the feeling of your genetics stopping with you wears off eventually.
I often think about what I want to pass on to my son. Sure he doesn't have my dad's genes or my mothers. But he will have their kindness, their generosity, emotional intelligence, strongness of mind. He will have their wonderful traits and probably a few that are not so great (re stubborn).
So while he doesn't have their genes he has everything else and thats quite a lot really.
The way you perceive things changes over time so look out for your thinking starting to change and welcome it. The minute you accept that you need to utilise a donor you will be at peace with this necessity.
The baby you will have will be the one you are meant to have. You will look in their eyes and know this for sure without any doubt. I promise you this.
Wait for the dust to settle a bit. Reach for your goal (to have a baby), best, THK
|This message has been edited by perthkitty on Mar 27, 2012 3:36 AM|