Tough day (preg, m/c, OE child ment)April 9 2012 at 12:45 AM
|Emilyr99 (Login emilyr99)|
Boy is this a tough week...
My brother's ex girlfriend gave birth to his baby yesterday. It was a 'keep a boy baby' but it didn't work. They are friendly, but in no way together. Makes me so angry as they are both so young and can barely function themselves, let alone look after a child. It will grow up in a government benefit funded home and it just makes me so angry that silly young girls can get pregnant so easily when they certainly shouldn't be parents yet.
Not only this, but my SIL had a miscarriage on Friday and she was RELIEVED!!! She already has two and they don't think they want a third and definitely not while they have two under 4. God, I'm so angry. DH's family refuse to talk about our situation at all. They are fix it people, so if they can't fix it, they just ignore it. And yet, my SIL is getting such a huge amount of support and we are all expected to rally around her. I know that she is grieving too even if she is relieved, but come on! All we got was a "that's no good".
And to top it off, I have another pregnant friend coming around tomorrow to pick up most of DD's baby furniture and clothes as she is onto baby number 4 which was unexpected and they had already given away or sold all their baby things before surprise number 4 came along.
I don't know how I'm going to cope and seeing all of DD's things drive away will rip my heart out. She is a close friend and I want to help. I have all this beautiful furniture that should be used and I trust that it will be very well taken care of, but just knowing that I din't need it and seeing it go to use with another baby is breaking my heart.
DH is coming off antidepressants as he was on them temporarily after the earthquake (he's a cop and saw some pretty awful stuff), so he is finding this weekend very hard too and he is usually my rock. So far I have held it together, but I'm starting to lose it.
How do I get through tomorrow after such a horrible few days?
TTC for 3.5 yrs from age 27
4 rounds on clomifene
About to start IVF when...
DD OE 3.5yrs old now
TTC 2.5 yrs for #2
2 rounds of clomifene
Dx with DOR Jan 2012
Using DE from sister possibly