Sending you a hug too

I understand. All the things you mentioned, I've felt them too. You will gather your strength and start down a new path and while you may always grieve the losses, mothering a little baby or babies will definitely provide a blessed counterbalance.

I know you feel like you are the only one who has had so many unexplained failures but unfortunately, there are more out there - it's just a minority of people and it's very unfair. When I FINALLY got my Asherman's diagnosis and understood all the ramifications, it was heartbreaking and I cried all the way home on the airplane after flying to LA to see Dr. March, but at the same time, I felt relieved, relieved to finally know the reason WHY. The hardest thing is not knowing why. Some will never get an answer to that. I will never know why my eggs failed so early in my life, but at least I know why the donor eggs wouldn't take.