Hi, there! Unfortunately, I don't have any advice for you, as I am even less advanced than you are on the path to DE. However, your post really spoke to me and here is why: I have noticed that every, and I mean EVERY step for DH and me has turned out to be challenging, for some reason. I think that for some people, it's a really difficult process. Like you, I don't doubt that there is great happiness waiting on the other side. But some of us just don't breeze through the process.
I just want to wish you all the best, and encourage you to feel really good about your choice, even if it takes longer. I sincerely believe that you will get to the other side of this. In the meantime, could you please let us know what you decide and keep us informed of your progress? I am keeping my fingers crossed for you and wish you all the best.