cycling again. Of course, I don't know the extent of your traumatic birth. I just celebrated my 50th birthday and my son is 4.5 years old (yeah, 5 and 50, it still kind of freaks me, but I know it's really just a number). You will never be younger than you are today, so if your age is the reason you are delaying your decision it will only get worse from here on out. If it were me, I wouldn't tell my family either... once you are pregnant again, how could they not be happy for you? Well, maybe they wouldn't be due to your prior traumatic birth, but if your MD gives you the ok to cycle again, that would be good enough for me. Are you in a position to consider using a gestational carrier to bring another child into your life, without risking your health? I desperately wanted my son to have a sibling, we had a failed FET when he was 2 years old... couldn't afford any more fresh cycles, I had to accept the fact that we were finished. There are many happy families where there is only one child, although I still ache for another (I don't think that feeling will ever go away) but it is no longer an option for us. My advice is to take advantage of the opportunity when the odds are most in your favor, best of luck to you.