Thanks, Mrs. M.
I started getting BFNs at home on Saturday (which was 9dp5dt). Got the official negative beta yesterday.
we are so sad. I was so happy and optimistic, not my usual MO at all, so it all felt different and exciting. I really, really felt pg, and not just the physical signs, I felt it from a deep place. I really could not believe my eyes when I poased.
I've been crying off and on since saturday, but I'm starting to feel better. It makes me sad, though, I know I won't ever feel that optimistic again.
SG wouldn't tell me the outcomes for the other two recipients, which pissed me off, it strikes me as useful information. In my currently pessimistic, jaded heart, I'm sure they were both successful and it's only me not getting what I wished for. (feeling sorry for myself much?)
It helps that we have 3 frozen. My doc wanted to do another mock transfer to take a good look at my uterus, which makes me happy. Than we'll do an FET later this summer.
Thanks for checking in, it means a lot.