This board has been a great support and resource for me. I am so grateful that it helped me through all the questions, fears, happiness, etc. When I first came to this board, I felt lost, lonely, didn't know what I was actually getting myself into. I couldn't believe I was actually going this route to get a baby. What was I thinking?? That is all that went through my mind. It was tough... Here I am two years later, and have this beautiful baby that I couldn't adore anymore. He is all mine. I don't even think of using DE. I know this is a very heated topic on this board, tell vs. no-tell. Right now, I am just happy. Happy that this baby and me found each other. When I look at my baby, I want to cry. I want to cry because he was almost not going to be here, because I had my doubts. My heart melts for him. When I smell him, he's mine. I just can't believe how my heart couldn't love him anymore. And...it's all real. It makes me want to cry because I am happy. Happy to have broken eggs that didn't work. I am glad things turned out this way. Would never ever have it any other way. For those that are contemplating with the idea and have made your decision to move ahead. I am happy for you, because you will be happy and your dream will finally come true. Best of luck to you.