I need to share this with you (OE pregnancy/BFP/ miscarriages mentioned)

Hi, ladies

I haven't been posting to this board since May after my last donor embryo cycle ended with an ectopic pregnancy. Also identified clotting disorder at that time.. This was following two failed donor egg cycles using my late husband's frozen sperm.

I have gotten pregnant the old fashioned way a few times over a 25 year period, but all ended in miscarriage...

A few weeks ago I had worked up the hope to get ready for one last donor embryo cycle. However, I had been feeling uncomfortable in my lower abdomen - so RE wanted an ultrasound to rule out any new fibroids or whatever might cause a problem.

So, yesterday I had the U/S. If you ladies are like me, you can read the U/S screen better than the technician by now, we've had so many of them! I put the wand in and the technician found my uterus and immediately I could see an unmistakeable gestational sac with a fetal pole in there! The little guy measured 7 weeks and 1 day with a heartbeat zipping along like crazy!!

I screamed!

I have been dating a man for the past few months and we started having a physically intimate relationship several weeks ago. It would never have occurred to me to use contraception... I just DON'T get pregnant without spending tens of thousands of dollars first, LOL!

My RE about fell over when she found out! I am now taking lupron and progesterone shots and using Vivelle estrogen patches to support this pregnancy. Trying, TRYING, very hard to hope for the best.

My boyfriend is substantially older than me (his children are in their 40s like me!!) I haven't told him or anyone else about this pregnancy (except you ladies, now!).

I want to tell him, but I'm afraid to. But even if he's not happy about it, I won't care. This might finally be the baby I've been waiting for, hoping for, and dreaming of my whole life!

OMG! I just can't believe it. Please, oh please let this baby grow and be born!

Thanks for letting me share this with you, ladies, even though it is OE. I just knew this was a safe, supportive place to let it out.

Peace,

CL

P.S. I'm pretty sure this is just a dream... very surreal...