I am struggling with my feelings and wanted to get input from this board. I have secondary infertility and have been trying for 7+ years for another child. At the beginning of my IF journey, I was very optimistic and just figured it would happen for me. I was in my 30's so I felt it was just a matter of time. As the years went by and I came to the realization that this would not happen, I started to feel hopelessness and depression.
I am going to a therapist, but it isn't helping much. My question to you wonderful ladies is this - why do I feel this heavy depression in my life? I have a child, so shouldn't I just count my blessings and feel fortunate and just feel happy? Why do I feel depressed? I feel split inside - my head recognizes that I am fortunate and I count my blessings, but my heart is heavy and full of pain.
Any input on how to get beyond this is appreciated.
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