I don't have advice on how to "get beyond" feelings of depression...if I did, I'd use the advice on myself! However, I just wanted you to know you are not alone and your feelings are totally normal. I am so, so, so grateful for my son. However, that doesn't stop me from wanting at least one more child. At this point, my family feels incomplete. I want to be a mother again/give my son a sibling. You are grieving a loss and I think it's only normal to have a heavy heart. It's good that you're seeing a therapist, but if it's not helping much, maybe it's time to consider a different therapist. I hope that DE works for you and that the pain in your heart is soon replaced with joy. Hang in there.