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Calm (no login)
Posted Nov 9, 2011 8:20 PM
Hi friends,
I have shamefully not posted myself or any responses for weeks. I am not sure why other than just strange feelings about belonging here more than on Pink. So many need support here (as I did/do) and I just didn't know how to verbalize that support. In many ways, I am scared of the BFP...sounds weird, huh? Some very sad posts on other boards pushed me under my shell. And, the very thing we all dream about, work so hard for began to make me nervous. It's as if by posting something positive here or on Pink would change the path of our journey!! I gave up on superstitions awhile ago - but I guess they are back  I am sorry for all those posts I should have written to support you lovely ladies in the past weeks. Know that you are in my heart.
Anyway, I am back. Thought I would post an update here, then return daily as a reader and a responder to others on this path. One of these days I will try to find a way to Pink.
So, DH and I find ourselves at 11 weeks tomorrow. We've been "discharged" from our IVF clinic and are now at a "real" OB. Past cone biopsies have them concerned about incompetent cervix possibility - so we are on every two week ultrasounds. All is measuring and testing fine and DH is over the moon. As am I, in the RARE moments when I am not REALLY REALLY sick with M/S (who called it "morning" sickness??). Hoping the weeks ahead will see that pass. I can deal with the sickness to get through this...just tough working and performing every day...but I am plugging along. Silly me thought all those hormones we took would prepare me for M/S...nope
For those new to this journey, I hope you get to know me as someone who helps support you along the way. For the veterans, thank you so very much for all you did for me (and DH) to carry us to this point. Who knows why one cycle works and others don't. But hope keeps us all alive and you gave that to me. This board is invaluable. I have been outwardly very "tell" to many in my life. But for those of you keeping this process quiet, this board will be your family...trust it and lean on it.
Love you all - see you around. Pray and cross fingers for us as we keep moving forward. Will do the same for all of you. ~ Calm |
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