Leigh (Login leigh74) Posted Nov 27, 2011 12:22 PM
I'm so thankful to have discovered this board--there's so much knowledge here! Reading your messages of support and encouragement has been fantastic and totally tear-jerking. I'm sharing my story because I so desperately need to tell people who understand. My family and friends are great, but nobody really gets what I'm going through.
I'm 37 and had been on BCPs almost continuously since I was about 18 due to pretty severe ovarian cysts. I stopped taking them shortly before I got married a little over a year ago since my DH and I knew we wanted to try for children. I knew something was wrong right away--I had horrible hot flashes almost immediately and never did have a period even after 6 months. I tried to ignore the symptoms and then forgot about them entirely when randomly got pregnant in June. We were shocked! Everything seemed great until I miscarried at about 10 weeks. After that, everything went back to the way it had been before--crazy hot flashes, no periods, etc.. and I finally decided that I needed to find out what was going on. Everyone (except me) was sure I was fine until my FSH came back at 145 and my AMH 0.15. It's all been repeated several times, along with the good news that there's nothing else wrong (thyroid antibodies, ANA, anti-adrenals, etc.. all negative; normal karyotype). I'm currently on bioidentical HRT to try and stop the menopausal symptoms and I'm finally getting some relief from the hot flashes... but it's all very depressing. I'm still so angry! I know it's not my fault--I'm very healthy, in great physical shape, eat well, am careful about the products I use, etc.., so why has my body has betrayed me like this?! Ugh.
Anyway, I have an appointment with an RE in a few weeks, but based on everything we know right now, using DE is our only real chance. I'm an only child, but I have a 26 year old cousin who I'm very close to--she has offered to donate. I am completely overwhelmed with gratitude that she would do this for us. She has done a lot of research on the risks (her step-mom is an ob/gyn) and I think we're both very realistic about the potential issues. Thankfully, we have support from our family, but I know it can be tricky. Has anyone gotten eggs from a family member? Anything in particular I need to consider?
We're just starting this journey and have a long way to go, so I'm sure I'll have tons of questions as we go through the process. Thank you for being here and for reading this far!