Hi, I only found this forum today! I have known since I was 15 that I would need DE to have a child. I had one try through DE IVF about 4 years ago. I had a positive test at home then just a few days later it was negative at the hospital which was a blow. Looking back though the relationship wasnt right so I think it just wasnt meant to be.
I am now happily married to an amazing guy and cant wait to have a family with him. We have been on the DE waiting list nearly a year and when we went for a consultation at our clinic this week we were told it would likely be around June 2012 when they will have a donar available. My husband is in the army and on tour for the next 5 months so it will be something to look forward to when he gets back.
What I am struggling with though is as we have recently got married, all the questions about when we'll have kids! I work with teenagers and constantly they spread rumors that I may be pregnant (I have a pot belly due to other health problems) which makes me really sad as I so wish it was true! Another collegue is getting married soon and talking about how they will try for a baby straight away and it seems all the office can talk about!
I've been trying to take my mind off it but have found myself watching baby programmes on Sky today, torturing myself. Any of you get the feeling sometimes that you wish you could just get all of your tries out of the way so that you know one way or the other if its going to work? Its the not knowing that gets to me. If I knew either way if it would work then I feel I could deal with it better.
I'm supposed to be going to a party tonight with friends and so not in the mood but determined to try and put on a positive face as I dont want the worries to win. My husband is back from some training tonight so I'm sure he will have to deal with tipsy tears bless him!
Thanks for listening. Just needed to talk and get it off my chest!