I am 45.5 years old, and I have a OE child. I have not been able to conceive again for the last 12 years. Long story short, I just ran into a lot of issues that would not allow me to conceive.
I am now concerned that I am getting too old. I don't feel too old, but I think I am taking outside judgement (media,nosy neighbors, judgmental friends) and reflecting that onto my own beliefs. I know I will regret if I don't keep on trying. However, how do I keep blinders on and not allow other's beliefs to impact my own views? I am having a hard time with doubt. For example, some of the thoughts going on are:
- Am I doing the right thing?
- Will having an older parent be a concern for the child?
- Will the age gap between children be an issue?
- What will neighbors and friends think about me having a child at my age?
It goes on and on. I just don't know how to deal with all my conflicting emotions. Maybe I am just venting, but I would like any input or suggestions about how to stop and focus on my wishes going forward. I do believe in mind-body connection and being stress free, and I think conflicting emotions don't help keeping a stress free environment.