I'm sorry you are feeling bad, and no wonder. You've gotten some great advice here. I would just add that if you think you might be clinically depressed, please talk to your doctor ASAP. And even if your symptoms don't warrant medication (or you prefer to avoid medication while ttc), a good therapist can be really helpful while on this roller coaster. It doesn't mean anything is "wrong" with you. I have a great therapist whom I saw for several years, then stopped, and then started seeing again when the infertility journey began.