...that you have been so blessed. This happens to me almost on a daily basis.
It will come right if you are brave and take the help and advice that are out there for you.
Once you have your baby, believe me, it will all make sense. It's just that you are in the worse place right now. My advice is to hang out on these boards and to see how happy we are with our DE babies - you may have many tears to shed right now, but believe me, if you stay on this path, then the most wonderful happiness awaits.