Second beta is 1173 at 11dp5dt, up from 520 two days ago.. So all is well, at least right now.
Until now, I'm not sure I realized just how traumatized I was by my previous (and only) pregnancy. We were so elated at this stage and naively thought everything was going so beautifully.. And then at 8 weeks, as my ob searched for that heartbeat that just wasn't there, everything came crashing down. We've always thought it was due to my own crappy eggs, but what if it wasn't? What if there's something else that caused it? The thought of going through another loss like that is too much. I honestly don't know how some of you have done this and survived it multiple times...
I will do my absolute best to stay relaxed and positive - I just really, really need to see that little heartbeat. Ultrasound in two weeks.
Thanks again, ladies. I don't know how I'd do this without you.