I'm so sorry that your soulbaby has not come to earth as of yet. It was during my time on the over 40 ttc board that I met a few women who were having babies via DE's and something finally clicked for me....I knew that that was the way that miracles would occur for our family. I think about Pat and many of my old board buds a lot....thanks for posting.
Each of us has to find our own time and way to bring our dreams to being. I wish you well on your journey and hope that you remember that there are all sorts of ways to create on earth and also be loving and nurturing. Also, what we experience on our path is truly the most important even though it is so hard at times. You will find your way...keep believing, trusting and letting go. May you be well, happy and peaceful!