Leigh (Login leigh74) Posted Jul 26, 2012 11:03 AM
I completely understand your hesitancy, but many, many congratulations on your success so far!! As you know, it's a very good sign to see a heartbeat at this stage, so I'm hoping your first prenatal visit will go beautifully. Like you, the thought of going for those early ultrasounds made me completely crazy - it's so difficult to get over that fear once you've experienced a loss! For now, though, celebrate the fact that you're pregnant and try to find some peace in that.
I have to admit that even now, at 20 weeks, I'm still not completely relaxed. However - and this is a big however - I've had a lot of complications (multiple SCHs, vanishing twin), which doesn't help. And every time I'd hear of someone having a m/c, whether it was 6 weeks, 8 weeks, or 17 weeks, I'd panic about the same thing happening to me. I did promise myself that after our big anatomy scan, I'd try to relax and enjoy. That was only yesterday, so I'm having varying levels of success so far.
Early on, one thing I did to help was to say daily affirmations (I posted mine a while back if you're interested), both for my own body and for the baby. Doing yoga or some sort of meditation is good, too. At the end of the first tri, renting a fetal doppler saved my sanity (this isn't for everyone, but it's been a complete and total lifesaver for me). And now, feeling him moving around is daily reassurance that everything is ok..
GL to you, Zoya. I'm so happy to hear your news this morning and I look forward to hearing your updates!