I'm sorry that you haven't had a BFP with the stick yet, but try to hang in there until you get the beta. I'm crossing my fingers for you!
I also agree that a tropical vacation with tropical drinks sounds great if that's what you need if this cycle doesn't work out for you. We took a couple of vacations in between my miscarriages, and it was just what I needed. I think you should do whatever you need to do to take care of yourself. Also, please let yourself feel however you need to feel. This process is so incredibly tough.