Good morning!

I've now convinced myself that my breasts are deflating and are not as sore as they were yesterday. That, and extreme exhastion by 10pm are the only symptoms I've had so far. My clinic only does two initial betas, followed by the U/S the week after next. So - I won't have any clinical validation that things are on course until 7/5! I thought I was over it, but the ghosts of first ultrasounds past are creeping in. Ultrasounds that were never anything but bad, or at best, initially inconclusive, followed by loss.

I did an at-home pregnancy yoga video yesterday, and because I'm an idiot, I naturally went for one of the more challenging variations - until I remembered that I can't lift more than 10 lbs for now. Well, I strained more than the equivalent of 10 lbs, if that makes sense. And now I'm all worried about that.

Sorry to be such a downer first thing in the morning.

I had very few symptoms AND I fell down the stairs (on my back down the steps) two days after transfer. I was so scared. No need, they are 2 y/o now.

Hang in there!!

The past does come to haunt us.... Your clinic probably would do an u/s today if you told them youre having bad cramping....
Yes, I've done that before, (past success) and yes it is dishonest, BUT I was so worried I started imagining a bit of cramping. My clinic did u/s that day and everything was fine. I'm sure your worried mind is playing tricks on you because you did yoga. I'd call them and say your having cramping and really worried because of past experience. Please dont judge me for being dishonest, sometimes with these Drs it's needed to help this stress. Good luck!!! Xo

And it doesnt get any better - I always have those worries, those fears creeping in just before every appointment.

Try not to worry too much - pg symptoms come and go early on. Doesnt mean a thing on its own.

Know that you'll have my thoughts and prayers that all will be well



Kay

" Some people built castles in the air. She constructed hers from mashed potatoes, which kept down demolition costs." Sarah Sloane, Borrowing Priviledges

About the symptoms, I wouldn't read too far into that. I am 5 weeks 6 days today and still have 0 symptoms. NOTHING, NADA, ZILCH. I am telling you, if it wasn't for the tests and US's I wouldn't even know I was pregnant.

I should stop saying that, it's probably going to come bite me in the "you know what"!

The apparently deflating breasts always unnerve the newly pg. Anyway, I definitely wouldn't worry about the lifting you did. I almost hate to relate this, b/c I've done it so many times, but my older sister traveled with me to the Czech Republic for my first cycle. When the travel coordinator rattled off the list of things I was supposed to refrain from doing, when we were alone privately, my sister said to me, "That sounds like all the things they used to tell us to do to get rid of an unwanted pregnancy -- and they never worked!"

So, yes, some women have no symptoms at all. The P4 makes most of us queasy, but not everyone. If your U/S shows a disappointing outcome, it is almost certainly nothing you did that caused it.

{Hugs}

Maggie (in VA)

I was about 8 weeks when I felt SO not pregnant. 100% fine. I was sure it was all over. And there they were on the u/s still. Hang in there mama.

6-7 weeks...and I was sure it was over. I was wrong.

I agree with K, find a way to have u/s, it will put your mind at ease.

Gl

Thanks for your encouragement, Ladies.

I don't know how I've managed to convince myself of this. But I have. At the same time, I also think I'm smeeling some funky things, so that's new - whether for real or in my head, I don't know anymore. Oh, the thought of running in for an U/S certainly crossed my mind, but I don't want to do it and give in to the madness. Does that make any sense? I spent a fortune and a half on HPTs because I gave in to it - and what's next after the emergency u/s - another one and emergency betas? My capacity for driving myself and everyone around me nuts is truly limitless. Trust me....

I'll just keep poking and prodding to see whether they are still sore. And as for the perceived heightened sense of smell, I've just got to try harder to smell the roses. But it is so very difficult, as you know. This jourmey really is traumatic, as you know.

Lord, I need to get back to yoga. But I've decided to hold off on that until we have a heartbeat.

I'm just so terrified of showing up on 7/5 only to be told there is nothing there.

First of, Congratulation!
It is amazing how much we obsess over this. I remember how many reasons I find to worry between each milestone. The time between beta and ultrasound was the worst. I am 15 weeks and still not convinced enough not to worry. So you better find a good distraction for the coming few weeks so you can deal with each new found reason to worry
As for symptoms, that was my issue as well since I had none thus far. No nausea, morning sickness, sore boobs, nothing. Yet I've had several ultrasounds and everything is progressing well. So I am convinced not everyone is the same with pregnancy symptoms.
Best of luck to you.

I wouldn't even know I was pregnant if it wasn't for the betas and U/S. It makes me nervous too! I am sure all is fine with you.

usually you get a scan at around 5 and a half weeks to see the sac. then again around 6.5-7 wks to see the heartbeat. is 7/5 your see-the-sac scan? if so, that makes sense, but if they are making you wait until almost 7 wks, you should request an earlier one!

That is, assuming I add 2 weeks to the retrieval date. If I'm counting correctly, then I'll be 6 weeks by then.

Just to keep your mind in ease. I think I would have acted like you. Your feeling is understandable.

Wish you all the best.

I contacted my doctor and just told him I'm a nervous wreck given past experience and the long wait. I asked him to run another beta next week. He sent me the script, so I'll go sometime next week.

Now for the funny ha ha part...when I got home from work, DH wondered aloud..."isn't there some test they could run between now and 7/5?" He was happy to hear that I'm going in for another beta next week. Clearly, he was traumatized by our past experiences as well.

Cotton, to answer your question, I'll be roughly 6 weeks by 7/5.

Now for some good news - my boobs hurt again. Isn't that crazy? I'm happy than my boobs hurt.

Thank you so much for all of your support - as always.

You are an amazing group of women. Thank you for your constant support and warmth.

I was in the same boat as just over a week and a half ago. I kept saying, my boobs are not sore enough anymore. Everyday my husband would be like they are sore, should I touch them just to make sure ..how kind right. Anyway, I diagress... I kept playing mind games and then I had my u/s. And for the moment all was right in the world but I am secretly freaking out again and will until my next one.. another two weeks. I too have lost a baby so, I truly mean that I am in your situation. Stay strong and keep positive thoughts. I pray like I am a nun.

I am playing the same crazy games myself. Today I had my 3rd u/s- so last night I was up worrying that all may be over.
Well, today at 8 wks 4 days, all is good. Strong heart beat, measuring a day ahead...all is good for the day.
I am sure tomorrow I will begin the cycle of analyzing every symptom, like the rest of us. It is going to be a long two plus weeks!!!
I guess we all have to keep telling each other to hang in there!

Sorry to be chiming in late, but wanted to add that I started noticing that my nipples were less sore in the 8th week. Ultrasound that same week (a week ago) showed everything fine, but I was a nervous wreck going in. I keep telling DH that I wish I had a window in my belly so I could check on it all the time. Imagine how it was for our mothers who didn't have ultrasound! As for other symptoms, when I was where you are I think I only had fatigue. I started feeling a little queasy around 6 weeks, and that too hasn't been every day. Anyway, hang in there and be gentle with yourself.

I appreciate the reassurance. And all the best to you as well! Isn't this process maddening??!