What sad news - so sad for you and the grieving process you are going through...it is so hard. But to hear you getting ready for next time is so good. Take the time you need and use the board to vent/cry/rally for the next time. We are here for you - you are not alone.
I'm so sorry, Issla... I kind of feared that it didn't work when I didn't see your post. I'm glad that you're thinking about your next transfer. Disappointment and regret are heavy burdens to carry. I've tried to set mine aside. We can only deal with what we have in front of us at the moment.
Take some time to regroup, but know that the women on this board are amazing support. I've leaned on them quite a few times. It really does help to reach out.
Oh, I am so sorry Issla. Struggling through IF is so very isolating from the rest of the world. But, here, in the subculture of IF, we get it. COme here whenever you need a hug, support or a friend. B/c IRL friends tend to not get what we are struggling through at all, and worse, inadvertently (most of the time) say the worst possible comments, it is hard not to just avoid everyone and just stay silent in your struggles. It will eat away at you. You need an outlet, and I personally have found these network54 boards to be the best. It is an amazing group of ladies who all care about one another. You will have a safe, comfortable cyber home here for whenever you choose.
Hey you just keep cycling ok as your number will come up one way or the other. Never doubt this. You don't know when but it will happen.
I was a megga hopeless case and I've got a little one now. So you take my mom's advice 'just keep going you will get there'. She had fertility probs back in the 1960 and she kept at it and my sister and I eventuated and in turn two DE kiddies are here now (my sister's little fella and my little fella).
I'm so sorry. I had DE failures as well, including DE failures with high quality embryos. I was such a mess afterwards. I eventually had success, and I have no idea why sometimes it worked and sometimes it didn't work. Just keep trudging along, you'll get there. Take care of yourself.