Although I prepared myself for the worst..dont know why does it still feel horrible. What a rough day..no work, anxiety, biting nails and then bit dust. Ugh..this just succckkks so much. Though I'd share with you. I know many of you have seen these kind of days and cried like I did...
I know how awful this is. Sitting and rocking and clutching a pillow from the sofa and trying to answer the phone with a steady voice while chanting under your breath 'oh, please, oh, please.' I am so terribly sorry. (( )) I hope it will be soon that you find your way to your child.
So very sorry...I don't know your history and whether you
October 1 2011, 9:04 AM
have been through this before. With that being said, it was not until our 4th donor, that we were successful for the first time, after 15 years of trying. I only say that to give you hope. Honestly, it doesn't matter if it is your first cycle or 10th, it is never a good feeling.
I will keep you in my prayers. I send you hugs and support, whenever you need it.
you are so strong and brave to step out of your grief and hold my hand. It means a lot to me. My heart is filled with prayers and hugs for you. Thanks for your kind words.
I am more or less a silent lurker on these boards... dealing with primary IF, turned 34 a few weeks back, officially completing 5 years of this journey. This is my first attempt at DE - so obviously had a lot of hopes pinned to it. Like most of us, I have no one share this journey with anyone except you ladies. I did lose my wits yesterday, couldn't stop crying, as every little thing reminds you of all the pain and work you put into this.
But I feel better today, need to pull me together and think about next steps.
So sorry to hear this news. I'm glad to know you're feeling a bit better today, but do remember to be gentle with yourself. The loss of a hope such as this is a real loss, not to mention the expense and the toll on your body. My thoughts are with you as you move forward at your own pace.
I'm so very very sorry. Nothing hurts worse than a negative DE cycle. I've had my share. Good luck with your next steps. We are with you every step of the way. Be kind to yourself, its a rough place to be in.