Thank goodness I spent all day yesterday with my hubby so that really occupied my mind. We did some errands for the new house, it was a lovely day, and we had a nice lunch on the beach with a friend, watched our have HBO shows last night.
I DID just drop off my blood work today, a day early, as I just thought it was well enough time to get the results and we can not spend time together tomorrow the way we would like. I confirmed I was doing it with the clinic, so they are all onboard.
SO, I am literally in a cloud of spaciness that I just dropped of my beta bloodwork!
I am torn now about doing it earlier than they required...if it is negative, maybe another day of pretending to feel pregnant would have been nice? Or torture? I don't know. Fearful of a low beta, no beta, too high of a beta...
I am usually pretty negative about low starting betas but for this stage it is not that low - for 12/13dpo there is still much room for hope here. Just sorry it is so nerve-wracking right now. It could be higher, but you are pregnant, a little pregnant, but that is a huge leap right now.
Really sending you loads of good wishes and looking forward to Wednesday. Anything could happen.
I know it must seem pretty grim right now, but all hope is not yet lost. I've read so many stories on these boards about low initial betas and then slow, but steady doubling rates...
You've been on my mind so much the past few days. I'll keep hoping and praying for you. ((hugs))
I am sorry...you deserved one out of the ballpark for sure (success referenced)
April 16 2012, 10:22 PM
Wish there were realistic words of comfort and hope to offer though as I said about mine in retrospect, someone has to be in the bottom 1% of successful betas. You deserve better than beta hell this cycle of all cycles...praying for doubling and more.
I don't know what to say. It isn't easy thing. I thought this is your time. I hope it will change to high enough number tomorrow. What did they say to you? To retest any positive hope. When I got beta of 17 and it stayed like that and even around 24 for a while. Some of the ladies in this board said at least that I should know I can get pregnant and my uterus was good. It was good to hear something like that but still frustrate when you don't know when it will happen.
Really hoping that your beta continues rise and double. There have been successes with low betas. Hang in there, sweetie. We are always here for you 24/7.
I can't stop thinking about it and I'm on the other side of the world almost. I hope you're not driving yourself crazy. Oh and just in case you don't know what Kia kaha means (in LauraNZ's post), it comes from a Maori phrase "Kia kaha Kia toa Kia manawanui" and it means be strong, be brave and be of heart. Perfect words for you at the moment.
I wish I could offer some comfort to you during beta-hell. I know how much this hurts and I am truly sorry for your tough time. I am hoping and praying for you to have a nice strong beta on Wednesday.