Thank goodness I spent all day yesterday with my hubby so that really occupied my mind. We did some errands for the new house, it was a lovely day, and we had a nice lunch on the beach with a friend, watched our have HBO shows last night.
I DID just drop off my blood work today, a day early, as I just thought it was well enough time to get the results and we can not spend time together tomorrow the way we would like. I confirmed I was doing it with the clinic, so they are all onboard.
SO, I am literally in a cloud of spaciness that I just dropped of my beta bloodwork!
I am torn now about doing it earlier than they required...if it is negative, maybe another day of pretending to feel pregnant would have been nice? Or torture? I don't know. Fearful of a low beta, no beta, too high of a beta...
I am usually pretty negative about low starting betas but for this stage it is not that low - for 12/13dpo there is still much room for hope here. Just sorry it is so nerve-wracking right now. It could be higher, but you are pregnant, a little pregnant, but that is a huge leap right now.
Really sending you loads of good wishes and looking forward to Wednesday. Anything could happen.
I am sorry...you deserved one out of the ballpark for sure (success referenced)
April 16 2012, 10:22 PM
Wish there were realistic words of comfort and hope to offer though as I said about mine in retrospect, someone has to be in the bottom 1% of successful betas. You deserve better than beta hell this cycle of all cycles...praying for doubling and more.
I don't know what to say. It isn't easy thing. I thought this is your time. I hope it will change to high enough number tomorrow. What did they say to you? To retest any positive hope. When I got beta of 17 and it stayed like that and even around 24 for a while. Some of the ladies in this board said at least that I should know I can get pregnant and my uterus was good. It was good to hear something like that but still frustrate when you don't know when it will happen.
I can't stop thinking about it and I'm on the other side of the world almost. I hope you're not driving yourself crazy. Oh and just in case you don't know what Kia kaha means (in LauraNZ's post), it comes from a Maori phrase "Kia kaha Kia toa Kia manawanui" and it means be strong, be brave and be of heart. Perfect words for you at the moment.