not dealing.. why does it have to be so unfair?! (mt)
by dawni
mt - been accused of sa'ing someone
i'm _tired_ of being accused of something i didn't do. becasuse she lied to me i am now labeled as someone who sa'd someone else and i _DIDN'T_
i ASKED if what i was doing was okay anmd she said YES and it's not like i didn't keep asking, sdidn't want to make sure she was okay with it. because i did i did i did. that's ALL i did. just kept saying "are you sure it's okay?" and then she fucking says i sa'd her. and everyone just fucking believes her because you know, this is ________ and why would she lie? how come she gets believed when nobody believed me when i said i was sa'd by ppl i really _was_ sa'd by?
(and i can't help doubt myself.. what if i'm wrong and i really did sa her? how can i live with that?)
i don't know what to DO and i can't even talk about it with fiance because he was involved too and if i do, it'll make it sound like i think he sa'd her too and i *know* he didn't
gah. i'm sorry..
~dawni who feels more like 'monster' right nwo than 'dawni'