It's ok to be angry, and even to swear. I'm not sure if I'm the one your mad at or not, cuz I think I have not yet answered your last e-mail, and I can see how you might feel like I have chosen to ignore you. Because, you see, I've been very busy lately, and although I have answered the boards, I have not answered all my e-mails. If it is me your are mad at, I'm ok with that and can accept it. And if it's not me, that's ok too. Regardless, you are entitled to your feelings. And about you being strong and brave, I don't think that you are not strong or not brave, just because you can't always have strong and brave behaviors or feelings. After all, you are only human. I know that personally, I don't hate you even when you are having a really hard time, and I still want to know you no matter what you are going through. I know not everyone can handle it when people they know have a hard time, but there are still some good ones who can, and who don't judge you for having a hard time. I know it is hard to trust, and that people have not earned your trust, but I hope that you will find that there are people out there who are good to you, cuz they are there, and you do deserve that.