HATE
I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH
SO SO SO SOSO SO MUCH
I HATE WHAT I DO TO MYSELF
I HATE WHAT IT DOES TO OTHER PEOPLE
I HATE THAT I'M TOO WEAK TO STOP
I HATE THAT NO ONE CAN HELP ME
I HATE THAT THE PILLS DON'T WORK FOR ME BUT THEY WORK FOR EVERYONE ELSE
I HATE THAT THEY THINK I DO IT JUST TO UPSET THEM
BUT WHAT I HATE MOST IS ___me___
I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH AND THERE AREN'T ENOUGH WORDS TO EXPRESS IT
I HATE WHAT I'M DOING TO ME, BUT I DESERVE IT
I DESERVE EVERYTHING I GET
EVERYTHING I DO TO MYSELF
EVERYTHING ANYONE ELSE DOES TO ME
THE WHOLE LOT
BECAUSE I AM SUCH A TERRIBLE, HORRIBLE, _EVIL_ PERSON
NO
I'M NOT EVEN A PERSON
I'M A 'THING'
I'M NOT REAL
NOT COMPLETELY ANYWAY
ONLY A SHELL FOR THEM TO HURT AND FOR ME TO HURT AND DESTROY
BUT WHAT IS INSIDE IS _NOTHING_
THERE IS NOTHING THERE
NOTHING LEFT
MAYBE THERE NEVER WAS ANYTHING
BUT EVEN IF THERE WAS, THERE'S NOT ANYMORE.
NO ONE HAS EVER EXISTED ON THIS PLANET WHO WAS, OR WILL BE, AS EVIL AND VILE AND HORRIFICALLY TERRIBLE AS ME
AND I HATE MYSELF FOR IT.
HATE
HATE
HATE