It's hard, isn't it? They probably told you it was your fault. Either directly or indirectly. And even if they didn't tell you, it's hard to believe that someone you relied on to care for you could also hurt you, so you intrinsically believe it must be your fault, cuz they can do no wrong. I know it's hard to get over the emotional belief hurdle....we learn things intellectually much earlier than we learn to actually believe them with all that we are....the emotional beliefs are so much harder to change. Dee had some great feedback. I'd also like to recommend affirmations. Somehow it got drilled into your belief system that it is your fault, so now you can drill it in that it is NOT your fault. Tell yourself, over and over and over again, It is not my fault. It will take a while to believe it, but keep drilling it in. You are worth healing, and it was NOT your fault!!!!