i know what you mean, a good deal of my anger has been directed at God, and i have always wondered why God didn't help me... but recently i have recieved help from God... i don't know why, but i have... i have ptsd with really bad panic attacks, and at my age and weight i was very worried about having a heart attack, that's how bad the heart palpitations were... and one night i cried out in desperation to God for help and since then i haven't had a heart palpitation... you can't imagine how strange it is to have a panic attack without palpitations! why didn't God take away the panic all together? i can't say, but this is the second time that God has saved my life... i'm not a religious person, but God doesn't seem to mind. and i'm just going to have to find help for the panic in other ways... i am going to see a hypnotherapist on tuesday, and i think that that is the biggest way God helps, is thru others, but i'm here to tell you that God exists and does perform miracles, as to the timing and reason God has for what He/She does, i cannot help with that... but one thing i am hanging on to is that i believe that evil is only here on earth, and God is waiting for us when we're done...
elaine