I'm so so sorry that things are not going well for you in these realms....I'm so glad you were able to come here to vent. I hope that you can let the anger out of YOU instead of just your body continuing to get tighter and tighter. Have you tried a massage? Or can you not deal with that? If you can do that, it can help loosen the tight muscles. In any case, feel free to keep coming back here and yelling/venting all you want/need.