Angry Expressions (Moderated)

This is a place to talk about things you are angry about, and to let you express your anger in an appropriate way. I will be monitoring this board closely...I hope to not see passive-aggressive behavior here, and if I do, I will try to confront it, regardless of what or who it is regarding. The idea here is to express anger in a healthy way. Strong language is allowed, so please be warned of that if you decide to read other people's posts. I am giving this a test run to see if this board will work...if I see lots of inappropriate anger expressions, I will discontinue this board. Please show respect to all persons here.

WHY???????????????????

by YC

we are so fucking angry,devastated,hurt,fucked up,bewildered,stunned,shocked,confused................................WHY?????????????????????????

Posted on Aug 23, 2003, 1:28 PM

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YC

I'm not sure why you are feeling what you are, but I am here to help you do whatever I can help you with.

Love you lots,
Terrie

Posted on Aug 24, 2003, 1:02 AM

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YC

by Nikki (from Nikki's people)

I'm so sorry that you're feeling so bad right now. I don't know 'why'

Just remember that no matter why stuff happens, you are still a special person.

Love,
Nikki

Posted on Aug 24, 2003, 5:46 AM

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veri veri angri

by elijah (from nikki's people)

im sososo angri
i wwant to brake stuf
i want to skreem and hit and bite
i want to make it all stop
i want to make it betta for all of us
i hate him so musch
and i hate the other him to
i hate all of them
HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HAET HATE
im so angri i wanta smash sumthin but im not alowd
hate them sososo much

Posted on Aug 22, 2003, 3:00 AM

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hi Elijah

by Marianne

i be think you did good riteng yor mads heer. my frend Shellie dos give me lots of good ideyas for mad feelengs so that you feel beter esept you not be herting no one or no thing. i tel you wat they ar ok.
1.take a telafone book an rip rip rip rip it until it in tiny peeses.
2.if you got a car or truk then you can go in it an put al the windos up to the top an screem an screem an if you wan to you can put music in it to an screem with the music
3.if you know wer thers a tree in kind of privet then you can tak a basebal bat an go an hit the tree lots n lots of tims

also jus 1 more thing Elijah it ok to be hate them peepol thet hert you. my biger gerl cald nina she says lots of tims thet she hates peepol.
from Marianne

Posted on Aug 22, 2003, 12:36 PM

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Elijah

I think Marianne shared some very good ideas. Some more ideas are:

--hit a pillow or couch or bed that is soft so it doesn't hurt you
--go to a river or lake and throw stones in it
--throw clay down onto a wipe on/wipe off board that is laying on the floor
--twist a towel as hard as you can.

You did a great job talking about your anger, and it is certainly ok to be angry. Please feel free to come here and write as often as you need to.

Terrie

Posted on Aug 24, 2003, 1:02 AM

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sosososo angri

by Elijah and Alyssa (from Nikki's people)

wy he not leev us lone? why? wy he not stop pikin on us and kcallin us fat and yelin at us and wy he keep bugin us wen we dont do nuthin to him? elijah angri and alyssa grumpy and we not alowd to cry coz that is f4or babys and if we cry then she wil bget us in trubl and that wood be skcariy
elijah is veriveriveri angri
he wonts to rite it but hes skcard ofv getin in trubl
is he alowd to rite heer?
thank yoo for lisening from alyssa and elijah

Posted on Aug 17, 2003, 9:03 AM

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Re: sosososo angri

by Marianne

I wish that he wudent call you bad names liek that. That is hertful to yor feelengs i know. i hope that he stops that a lot. My gooud frend shellie borowed me a sheeld frum bad names and if you want it to borow then i wil let you borow it. its a sheeld that you put over yor body and eers and then its not so hertful to yor feelengs enimore. you can make it watevr coler you want to. Ok?
i think its ok if for Elijah to rite heer even if he is reli mad an angri becase thats wat this plase is for. my brother is cald roger and he is so so so so so mad but he says that he shudent rite heer in case he is to skary but i tel him that i think terie would understand and not be mad becase she is good. So thats wat i think.
from Marianne

Posted on Aug 17, 2003, 7:31 PM

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Hi there

I think it is very ok for Elijah and for Roger to both write here about feeling angry. That is what this board is for. And I think it is so very very wrong for him to call y'all (Nikki's people) fat and say mean stuff for you. No one has a right to be mean to you in that way. Can I ask who he is? Is he her husband? Whoever he is, I hope that y'all can find a way to keep yourselves safe from all his meanness and namecalling, cuz y'all are worth a whole lot more than that.

Peace,
Terrie

Posted on Aug 17, 2003, 9:55 PM

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terrie ladee and marianne frend

by Alyssa (from Nikki's people)

thaank u bveri musch f4or riting to us. you ar a luvly ladee. thank u. he is the bruther of nikki. he livs in her howse. he kcalls us meen thins just lik the evil futher yooused to. he kcalls us fat and terns the tv up reeli lowd to mak us skard and he piks on us alla time. thank u marianne f4or riting me and elijah a leta. u ar a nise frend to. i tfhink its ok f4or roger to rite heer to. maaybee it wil make him feel beta. from alyssa.

Posted on Aug 18, 2003, 3:17 AM

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Hi again

Thank you for helping me understand, Alyssa. I am wondering why he lives at Nikki's house if he is so mean? Maybe Nikki can figure out a way to not have to have him there being mean to all of you....

Thanks for writing,
Terrie

Posted on Aug 18, 2003, 6:02 PM

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Iam very angry

I am angry. This baord looks alike a healthy board. Not like the ones that i have seen online, wih all the profanity out there. I want to get better, but it seems that this site is for younger children. I am scared, angry, i have flashbacks and thedarm medications are not workin. I need help and ineed it now. I was just in the hospital just last month, i do not need to be there again. Why cant there be a decent site for us?

Posted on Aug 16, 2003, 1:49 AM

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Hi there

You are more than welcome to post here. Although "A Safe Place" is mainly for littles, the other three boards (Healing our lives, Angry expressions, and Memory Meadow) are for all ages. So please don't be put off by littles writing, cuz they are not the only ones here, and they are warned to be careful of triggers so that people can really talk about what's on their minds. You have every right to express your feelings, and can be as candid as you need to here. Hope to see you again.

Peace,
Terrie

Posted on Aug 17, 2003, 9:51 PM

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I'm a big

by Hope

It's just not for little ones here. I'm glad you are here to talk things out. Meds are very difficult for most of us here, I bet. I'd be happy to hear from you and yes, this is a good, safe place to write. I've known Terrie for quite some time now and she's always been nothing but helpful and loving towards all of us.
I can't tell you how much we appreciate her and how much she cares for everyone who writes here and to her. It's very genuine and sincere.
I hope you'll come back again.
I'm sorry you've had bad experiences elsewhere. You don't deserve that...nobody does.
Hope

Posted on Aug 18, 2003, 9:08 AM

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I'm angry

by Hope

about one of my daughters who takes apart every email and analyzes every word
that I can't think straight
that I don't have any energy to do what normally is easy for me
Stupid new mental health center!

ok...thats enough to be angry about
Hope

Posted on Aug 7, 2003, 3:26 PM

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Hope

I can understand your anger, and I hope you feel better soon.

Love you,
Terrie

Posted on Aug 14, 2003, 9:36 PM

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Going on vacation

I'm leaving today for a 2 week trip to England. I have a very trusted friend watching over the forums for me, so you all will continue to be safe here. I look forward to talking to y'all again when I get back....will miss you!

Smiles,
Terrie

Posted on Jul 14, 2003, 8:52 AM

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grrrrrrrrrrrr mdmdmd angryyyy

by Lisa

im mad n is no fair we git to leav we get tu run again like awais an everyone sai its him fault butt why we run away again?
wy WYWYWYYY no fairrrrr hate tis all hate him hate life nooo fairr
we hav tu run away alway runn wen we stop? wen we dead?
is gone be too long if wait for tat...
every on e tell me i du nothin he did it he bad....
i feel is me if i listn an if i say no louder he hear beter then . i cry like a baby is wy he hurt more he no like cry
is al my fault
is cuz of me they run....Max goten hurt and hit an sta b wit nife bcaus of me she wanf tu protect me....is not fair....she hurtoing
hate himmm hate all of them
tomorow hav to tell all over agin alll ....tell wat he did...is bad wt he did coupl of tings i dont no wat is calld...sum ting all i no is he hurt...dammmm no want to .....
nooo fair hat him hat e allll hatellll
lisaaaa

Posted on Apr 30, 2003, 10:09 PM

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{{{{{Lisa}}}}}

by katy

aaaawwww sweet, we know running is no fun huh! we have to do it alot, but you know what, none of it is your fault and you are soooooo brave to tell what he did and you are helping to keep everyone safe by doing so. And one day, the running will be able to stop.Its just hard when its happening huh! Wes really proud of you for being sooo brave and strong, cos you are.

Posted on May 2, 2003, 6:34 AM

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ty

by lisa

for yu suport
stil tink is my fault
hav to be..
lisa

Posted on May 9, 2003, 1:46 PM

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is it ok?

by some guy you know, not a stranger

is it OK to hate someone your system loves?
yeah, really hate!
I'm a protector by the way.
r

Posted on Apr 7, 2003, 9:43 AM

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hi

by dawni

well, personally i think hating anyone is not really good for you so i will use 'dislike' instead of hate and hope you understand.

anyway, if you don't like someone, i'm sure there's a reason for it, right? and that's okay. because your reasons might be different to the reasons everyone else likes that person. maybe you know something they don't, or vice versa too.

i think what wouldn't be okay would be to ruin the friendship that others in your system have with that person without their consent. unless the love the rest of your system has for that person is putting you all in red hot danger, that is. does that make sense? but danger shouldn't be determned just by you, though, 'cause sometimes if we don't like someone we can overjudge how much danger we're in with them just because we don't like them. and not necessarily on purpose either, if that makes sense.

well i hope this helped i'm sorry it's sort of all over the place. i woke up way too early this morning.

love,
dawni

Posted on Apr 7, 2003, 6:21 PM

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Hi there

Yes, it is ok. You are entitled to your feelings, whatever they are. If the person seems unsafe, you might try talking to others in your system about it. If you just hate them just because they get on your nerves or whatever, then you might choose to not interfere with the system's relationship with them, but to just allow yourself to have your own feelings.

Peace,
Terrie

Posted on Apr 8, 2003, 9:37 AM

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HURTFUL FRIENDS

I AM GETTING SO TRIED OF PEOPLE ACTING LIKE I DON'T EXIST IN THIS WHOLE STUDID WORLD EVEN WHEN I'M WITH MY FRIEND SHE ONLY WANTS ME THERE TO SPEND MONEY ON HER AND WHEN SHE GETS IT SHE SPEND IT ON BEER. I AM IN A RECOVERY PROGRAM AT A CHURCH NOW BUT WHEN WITH THEM THEY TREAT YOU LIKE I'M INVISIBLE CAN YOU PLEASE HELP ME TO GET OVER THIS NEEDING TO BELONG.

Posted on Aug 13, 2003, 4:39 PM

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Annette

I'm so sorry that you feel like you don't belong anywhere...I know that is a lonely feeling, or at least it was for me when I was going through it. Please know that you are not invisible here, and I am glad you are here. I hope to hear from you again soon.

Peace,
Terrie

Posted on Aug 18, 2003, 6:22 PM

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Hi

by Katy

we have the same thing with some people in the system, but i think they are just behaving like they are because we are doing alot of healing and they are trying to get in the way of it and don't want us to get better, cos everyone else in the system loves this person lots and its not bad at all.
Guess it depends on why you don't like this person, but I don't think it would be right to stop everyone else communicating with the person, unless you think they are not safe with them?? Have you told this person why you don't like them and tried to fix it or reach a compromise?

Posted on Apr 9, 2003, 4:08 AM

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so its ok????????????????????? grr

by dawni

i was really upset the other day, this junk with the ex is STILL going on, and we are still being harrassed a lot because of it. well awhile back one of our and the ex' old friends showed up in a chat room we go to now, and we were suspicous. we talked a bit to her and she said, without us prompting, that she and the ex weren't friends no more, and she didn't like the ex. then we find out a week ago she made the ex a bracelet (in the last 2 weeks). well i dunno about you but to me that doesn't sound like someone who doesn't like that person huh? so w'ere feelig upset and scared and untrusting, and then we tell a friend and our friend says well you can't change it so don't worry about it - so its OKAY for our ex to keep telling these lies, because we can't change it? so its OKAY for us to be harrassed on a daily basis because we can't change it? its OKAY for us to not be able to trust hardly anyone because 90% of people seem to be in leagues with the ex and whoever is harrassing us?

Posted on Feb 21, 2003, 5:49 AM

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dawni

Of course it's not OK, sweetie. I think what your friend was saying is that we have a choice of whether or not to spend our efforts worrying about things that we cannot change...after all, if we can't change it, even though it is NOT ok, spending our effort worrying about it will not make it any better, but will keep us focused on the bad and feeling miserable about it, rather than trying to focus on other things that are not as bad and might help us feel better, despite such wrong being done to us. It is true that many things that happen to us are not right and not fair, and this is one clear example of that because she is very wrong to do this to you.....but how it affects us is largely up to us (not completely, of course, cuz we have no control over other people, but we are in charge of ourselves and how we react and deal with things). I think it is important to acknowledge how things hurt us, and to grieve those hurts. But then it is also important to move above and past what happens TO us and find new options in life to move around those obstacles. Dawni, I am so sorry that she continues to cause problems, and that it affects so many of your relationship.....you do not deserve that at all. So how can you now focus on those relationships not affected (such as ones here) and also find new relationships that feel good to you. You deserve to find happiness hon...you really do.

Love you lots,
Terrie

Posted on Feb 21, 2003, 7:26 AM

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hell no it aint ok

by Anonymous

i dont realy have anythin good 2 say but just did wanna tell ya i dont reckon its ok... them peeps sound like morons who r users an yr better off with out em anyways..bita luck he or she will choke on the bracelet.. im real sorry yr bein harrassed an all by ya ex an by peeps who no him or her.. they dont deserve u 4 a friend an u deserve heaps better an i hope they let up on ya soon an if they dont i hope karma gets em an they can suffer then....
take care dawni.. luv from Jamie-lee

Posted on Feb 23, 2003, 2:16 AM

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Its never going to end

Ill tell what I am angry about Im angry I let this man treat me the way he did for 5 years. I am angry at my self for allowing my children to witness the cruelty done to me. I have finally found what little left of myself to leave him but to this day he still has the control over me but uses the legal system to get me He has put false charges on me of serious crimes and I am angry at the system for they believe him because he is part of the system and they dont know the real monstor behind that mask he wears downtown

Posted on Feb 15, 2003, 9:11 PM

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BJ

It sounds like you have some very legitimate anger there..... I'm glad you finally did get the courage to leave him...I know that is hard to do. I hope you can find a way around the mess and hurt he is continuing to cause in your life, cuz you certainly do not deserve any of that. Feel free to come vent here any time.

Peace,
Terrie

Posted on Feb 19, 2003, 7:10 AM

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Sorry for this!!!!!!!!

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hate this world i no longer want to be here or want to be going through this pain. I hate it all!!!!!!!!

Posted on Feb 9, 2003, 6:24 PM

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Sharon

Hi Sharon. I sure hope you feel better soon. You matter.

Safe hugs if you want them,
Terrie

Posted on Feb 14, 2003, 6:46 PM

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Angry and hurt!!!!!!!

Sorry about this i just wanted to vent my anger out, i feel so lonely today i just can't cope anymore!!!!!!!

Posted on Jan 21, 2003, 7:11 AM

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Hi Sharon...

You do not need to be sorry....ths is a place for venting as much as you want. Do you want to talk about what's wrong? Whether you do or not, I will keep you in my thoughts, and hope you feel better soon. You are not alone.....

Terrie

Posted on Jan 21, 2003, 7:23 AM

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i'm so so so sorry

Thanks Terrie, its just that i'm trying to arrange some councelling and they all have such long waiting lists and i've been knocked down further into the ground, i just can't see any way out anymore.

Posted on Jan 22, 2003, 7:55 AM

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Sharon

Gosh, I know it is frustrating to have to wait like that....waiting lists can be such a pain. I know that we can't offer you counseling here, but we can offer you support and in some cases even some guidance. Please feel free to write here whenever you need/want to talk.

Safe hugs if you want them,
Terrie

Posted on Jan 23, 2003, 12:48 AM

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by Anonymous

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I FUCKIN HATE THIS SHIT FUCKIN FUCKED UP FUCKIN LIFE AM JUST A FUCKIN FREAK & NOONE LIKE FREAKS

Posted on Jan 6, 2003, 8:21 PM

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Hi there

I'm glad you were able to vent your feeling....and sorry that you feel that way. Please know that you are welcome here anytime, and I hope you feel better soon.

Peace,Terrie

Posted on Jan 6, 2003, 11:26 PM

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Posted on Jan 6, 2003, 8:16 PM

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cant let go....lots...geting lost

by sandra

GRRRRRRRRRR ..CANT KEEP HEAD STRAIT ...DOO STUPID TINGS...LOSING CONTROL,...ready to qwit soo dam hard...S

Posted on Dec 26, 2002, 8:40 PM

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Sandra...

Hi sweetie....would you like to talk about it? I'm here for you.....and I care.

Love you,
Terrie

Posted on Dec 28, 2002, 1:40 AM

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terrie.....trigger

by sandra

iss so hard...want my bb bak...cant stop heering her..she is in my dreem all time...i saw her she was ssoooo tiny...how can they do it? how can they hate me so much? what i do so wrong? why? why?she cring...litl squeek sound she s so tiny...then nootin is all stop..all stop...
y she hate me so much? am so stupid an s bd..but wy the bb?why kill her she done nothin
they keep tiyng me to still do it...butthey kill my bb..dont thy kno how bb is made? mom knos.an she laff...she dont participate but iheer her behin door..
he shoot me drugx..hate needles...hate them.it hurt..he give it in foot..cuz no one see it..
am such a slut..is bbter mi daughter dontno me..is beter if idispeer..and mom say i go to hell so i wont see her ever.....it hurt tooo much.... S

Posted on Dec 28, 2002, 10:54 AM

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Sandra

Oh sweetie...I'm so so sorry you are hurting so much. I really don't know why they did what they did, but I do know that it was not your fault, and that you did not do anything wrong. You are not stupid and you are not bad. He was wrong to drug you and to r*pe you. She was wrong to laugh. They were wrong to take away the baby too. And sweetie, you are not a slut and you will not go to hell....You are a beautiful, wonderful person, so deserving of love, and such a blessing to know. I hope you feel better soon, but please know that it is ok to grieve the loss of your baby. I am here for you, and I love you.

Safe hugs,
Terrie

Posted on Dec 29, 2002, 9:32 AM

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where???????

by YesterdaysChild

where is everyone when you need them?????

do we need anyone anyways???????

no-one can or wants to be here when we need someone.

I hate this stupid life!!!!!!!

Posted on Dec 22, 2002, 11:43 AM

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Hi sweetie

I'm right here for you. Am sorry if you needed someone when no was was able to be here, but please know that you are in my heart always and that I am holding you safely.

Love you lots,
Terrie

Posted on Dec 23, 2002, 7:49 AM

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Whoops TTTTTTTT

I did something yesterday and no one is going to like me anymore, I'm sorry but i have cut myself to release the pain but it didn't take the pain away just left me with great big holes in my legs. I just want to d*e.
Sharon

Posted on Dec 21, 2002, 10:13 AM

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{{{{{Sharon}}}}}

by Tasha

no one is gonna think any less of you cos you sh'd......its how we all cope with stuff...oks so its not the healthiest way...
Hope you look after the cuts and keep em safe n clean.

{{{{{{{{{more huggies}}}}}}}}}

Posted on Dec 21, 2002, 10:58 AM

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well i still do

by dawni

hi sharon,
just wanted to say that i still like you, and just because you hurt yourself doesn't mean you're not a good person or that people shouldn't like you. there are lots here who do it too. i'msorry that it didn't make anything feel better

i know how much that can suck.

i hope the pain goes away for you soon

love,
dawni

Posted on Dec 21, 2002, 4:34 PM

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Sharon

I'm so sorry you are hurting Sharon. But please know that I have many friends who do SI, and it does not make me like them any less than if they didn't do that. Hopefully in time you will be able to learn other ways to cope, but even if you do, you are not a bad person for it. I'm glad you are here.

Terrie

Posted on Dec 21, 2002, 6:59 PM

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Thanks

Hi All, just a short note to say Hi and thanks for all the support you have shown, more than my family will ever do for me, i have not been around for a while cas i was hurting too much to face anyone, feel a bit better now to face the world, so watch this space!!!!!

Posted on Dec 26, 2002, 7:41 PM

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Sharon

I'm so glad to hear that you are feeling some better, and I look forward to hearing more from you as you feel up to it.

Terrie

Posted on Dec 28, 2002, 1:41 AM

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RE: QUESTION

HOW CAN SOME1 FINALLY BE ABLE TO PUT THE PAST TO REST?

I HAVE A CHILD WHO IS 2 YRS OLD AND I DON'T WANT TO BE ANGRY FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.

ANY SOLUTION WOULD BE GR8LY APPRECIATED.

MY MUM DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT SO HOW CAN I FORGIVE BUT NOT FORGET? I WILL NEVER FORGET MY PAST I HAVE PUT MY MEMORY OF WHAT HAD HAPPENED IN THE MEMORY LANE IF U WANT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO ME.

Posted on Dec 17, 2002, 8:58 PM

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Hi Tanya

I'm sorry that your mum does not want to talk about it. I have not read over at Memory Meadow yet, but will answer what I can here. If you do get to the point of forgiving, that does not mean you forget. Your past is a part of you, and has been a part of shaping who you are....as such, you will never forget it. The goal in forgiving is to be able to let go of your anger. That does not mean condoning what happened, or saying it was ok. Of course it was NOT ok. But after you process through the anger, you will be able to put it more behind you where it will not be so "in your face" as a part of your every day life. It is a process, and it's not easy....but you can do it, I'm sure. Feel free to vent here anytime.

Peace,
Terrie

Posted on Dec 17, 2002, 10:55 PM

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So angry

by X

I am so angry at one of my littles stupid girl has said too much on a message board so now people know. She needs to learn to keep her mouth shut. When will she learn that things are worse if we say anything.

Posted on Dec 14, 2002, 8:12 PM

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Hi X

I am wondering how her talking makes things worse. Whatever the answer, I'm sorry that you are feeling so angry. I know that is a big feeling. Is there anything I can do for any of you?

Terrie

Posted on Dec 16, 2002, 11:49 PM

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Angry

by X

It makes things worse because that is what has always happened. I tried to say things and all that happened was we ended up in court and in foster care and then things were worse than home. And we ran away from there and were found and moved again. But its always the same. We are happy where we are now but if anyone reads what she wrote we will be moved again. No one will believe us anymore if we dont want to go. Here at least we know what to expect and what is expected of us and we are ok here. So see she should just not say anything, she is too little and doesnt know or understand things.

Posted on Dec 17, 2002, 3:21 AM

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Hi again X

I am wondering how old the body is? Cuz if the body is all grown up, then people can't make you go to foster care anymore, and I'm thinking that the things you went to court about are not still in the courts, so you won't have to go there either. I am glad you are all ok where you are now, and know what to expect. I know that is good. I would love to talk to you some more.

Peace,
Terrie

Posted on Dec 17, 2002, 7:26 AM

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Hi

by X

I am 16 and I look after the others. But the body is 27 and she doesnt even want to have anything to do with us. She did get us into this refuge though so at least that is something. Her name is Liz.Oh and my name is really Xanthe. And we have Katey and Em and Bec and Thom too but they all mostly hide and are scared and I think there are two other but I dont know them but. Is it true we never have to go to foster care any more?
thanks
X

Posted on Dec 18, 2002, 5:51 PM

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X

Xanthe...what a wonderful name! Anyway, yes, it is true that you will never have to go to foster care anymore, cuz the body is all grown up now. I'm really sorry that Liz does not want to have anything to do with you... know that it is hard to feel rejected like that. Personally, I have really enjoyed getting to know Katey, and am now enjoying the pleasure of getting to know you as well. I'm wondering if you can tell me what you mean by being in a refuge? It sounds like that is something good, but I'm not sur what your situation is. Thanks for writing to me, and I hope to hear from you again soon.

Terrie

Posted on Dec 18, 2002, 6:17 PM

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hi again

by Xanthe

Liz is just stupid and she doesnt care about any of us. Thats why the others hide so much except Katey she's cheeky and can be rude but also says too much to people.
You asked about our refuge well its a sorta house for people who cant live totally on their own but dont need to be in the hospital any more.There is a caretaker here who makes sure we're ok and helps us to keep the place organised. There are 5 other people here and sometimes they can be a bit scary. Its an ok place but Liz does stuff she shouldnt and thats why we end up hurt and mostly it seems to be Emily cause she always tries to make everyone do the right thing and stick to the rules. Sometimes Liz has men come here and shes not sposed to and sometimes she has too much drink and too much medicine and it makes her sick.
Thank you for writing to me. Is this the right place to keep writing to you?
X

Posted on Dec 20, 2002, 12:47 AM

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Xanthe

I'm really glad you are in a safe house, even if Liz does sometimes do things she shouldn't. And do the others who live there have DID too? I'm sorry that Liz sometimes breaks the rules, and I hope that does not threaten your stay there. How long have you been there? And how long can you stay? I just want you to know, that I don't think Katey says to much. I know it is scary for y'all when anyone speaks alot, but you are safe now, so I think it is safe to talk too. As for where to write to me, you can choose whichever forum is most appropriate for the post....I try to check them all daily.

Smiles for you,
terrie

Posted on Dec 21, 2002, 12:47 AM

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Hello.

by Misty

Hello. My name is Misty and I am with dawni in Tonight's Sky.

Right now I am highly annoyed. There are some very terrible lies going around about us and particularly dawni. I am angry. She did nothing to deserve these heinous lies or the harassment that is ensuing as a result of said lies. She did nothing at all. Yet day in and out we are left little notes. Little messages designed to hurt, and they do.

I am angry that we are being punished for something we did not do. I am angry that the crime we are accused of is one that we honestly suffered. I am angry that we, who are unfairly and unjustfully accused, must suffer when those who were rightly accused were left in peace. I'd like to know why. This situation is terribly unfair.

And I am angry that this person who is causing us much suffering does not even have the courage to sign their own name. Instead they leave dawni to anxiously wonder who is doing these things. To wonder who it is that has turned traitor on her friendship.

I hope it was okay that I wrote these things here. It frustrates me that somewhere out there a person is doing these terrible things and there is nothing I can do to protect us from them.

Yours,
Misty.

Posted on Dec 12, 2002, 7:02 PM

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hey misty

by J

hey misty i dunno ya but i no dawni who i reckon pretty kool an even that i dont do no talkin 2 her on this place or in emails or nothin i think of dawni lots an i reckon its real sad shes bein hurt by some 1... i wanna say 2 dawni that person whos doin terrible stuff 2 her it aint me an probly she will be suspisious from me sayin that but just i no she does no i did hurt some 1 else who was me friend here an i got 2 thinkin dawni might be thinkin im the 1 whos hurtin her 2...if i got a prob with some 1 i tell em with me name so it aint me k an i dont go hurtin peeps on perpose but some times i do some real wrong stuff an hurt peeps an then hate me 4 doin it but am promisin ya i aint hurtin u k I PROMISE....i dont neva talk 2 no 1 no more so 2 make sure i dont go hurtin em an plus i been in the hospital from tryin 2 kill meself an just only got outta there 2day in the after noon an they aint got no net in there so i aint been round 2 hurt no 1... am so real sorry yr gettin hurt dawni an i want u 2 no if i could id would belt the crap outta em 4 ya if u did no who it was an i hope they will leave ya alone cause u dont deserve none of that..... did u no u can track emails an stuff???an so maybe u can keep that terrible stuff they sayin 2 ya an take it all 2 the cops an they can get em...an if is ok 2 say heres some hugs if u want em k ((((((((((dawni))))))))))..wish i could make stuff better 4 ya...from Jamie-lee....

Posted on Dec 13, 2002, 3:28 AM

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poem 4 ya dawni

by J

We March Through Time

Endlessly searching for friendship and loyalty
secrets from the depths of our souls
revealed to our most trusted companions
we underestimate their power
with a friendly touch or caring word
they reach to our hearts begging to comfort
as dark clouds roll across our vision
stumbling, falling we call out to those who can see
through the forbidding dark they appear
heroes to our dying souls
they pick our frail bodies off the ground
steadying ourselves on their strength we endure
letting their inner light guide us through
the heartache of existence
fragile and weak
we futilely try to express to them
the influence of their unwavering compassion
time spent oblivious to our treasures
wasted by ignorance
now wishing to give them their paradise deserving
themselves unknowing of their inspiration
as dark clouds pass and devoted friends be known
we pray that we always will
stand side by side with these angels
through anguish and bliss
~Poem by Kim Ketterer~

Jamie-lee

Posted on Dec 15, 2002, 8:09 PM

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Hi Misty

I'm so sorry that y'all, especially dawni, are being hurt continuously. I know y'all do not deserve it and that dawni did nothing wrong. I wish the other person would finally drop it.

Love ya,
Terrie

Posted on Dec 16, 2002, 11:47 PM

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