an old friend haunts me
I loved this person once and she won't quit hounding me.
I've gotten to where I don't feel safe for myself or any of my friends anymore.
I don't know why she won't leave me alone. I am gone. I haven't seen her in a very long time. She has no idea who I am or what kind of person oe people we have become. Why can't she leave us alone?
I must have hurt her badly and I am very sorry I did. But I wish it would stop because it has already done too much damage inside and outside.
I feel totally ruined for life by her. I don't think she can find me here. I hope so.
I don't know whether to blame her for my pain or both of us or if it is mine alone to carry.
I honestly feel like a p*rp but I don't know what I ever did but try and love her.
Maybe I don't remember. Maybe one of us came out and really did some damage that can't be forgiven.
I have to keep running. Next time, I hope she can't ever find me again.
This feels worse than what I went through as a kid. Maybe now it's because I am trying to protect the littler ones. Maybe because I see too many friends around me confused and hurting too.