I am dealing with so many new nightmares & when I started posting on here I had allot of help. I had several people I could talk to & turn to. Now I have no one. Except my father above. I am depressed & feel like I have a plague os something like nobody cares. It hurts so bad because I really thought for once in my life I really had people who cared for me & they would never turn their backs on me. I guess, I'll never have that. I get hurt over & over. Why? Why do I deserve this? Why can't I find frineds to really care? Anyway it doesn't matter anymore. I have cried so much over this. I am so empty. My past is so hard & when it feels there's nobody here on earth that cares or nobody I can just talk to I get scared. I'm not sure I know what trust is anymore & not sure anyone cares. I feel so alone. Tam