Your letter made me cry. I want a friend that won't run, so badly. They all seem to run out on me. I feel this is what I deserve because it's like I have a disease just because I hurt. I got a letter just this morning from someone I considered a friend & they were letting me know the title they use is not friend. It hurt & I have cried all morning. Maybe I don't understand things at all. Maybe nobody can love me or care after what happened with me as a child. I feel like a worthless piece of trash & to allot of people that must be what I am. They just throw me aside like trash. I am tired of hurting & tired of being such a bad person to so many people. I am different because of my past. I was hurt so much I go out of my way to be good to people & bring a little happiness into others lives. I cook meals for people & I do jobs for elderly just because I care, I have always sent gifts & cards to people I care for. I have always did anything extra to help my family out & it seems it's impossible for anyone to do something kind for me. I don't understand. Since I was little people have walked out when I needed them the most so I guess some things will never change huh? Now I feel like the most unimportant & usesless person in the world. I am scared & so alone inside & out. I appreciate the post. I have nobody here anymore to talk to & nobody who cared enough to listen anyway. I am so hurt. So, tired of crying my heart out for nothing. Peace to you! Tam