Thanks for responding. I am so confused right now. I have never had trouble loving anyone but, myself. I am constantly helping others & doing things to make other people happy. I like to show people around me how much I care. I guess because I've needed that so much in my life & never found anyone that treated me that way. It hurts too so badly. I'm not sure how to start loving myself though. After all the terrible things my grandfather had me believing about myself as a little girl. It really sunk into my mind as I got older. Every bad thing he taught me about (me) really stuck with me more every day that went by & still does. I felt more worthless with each passing day. And then the pain the ex husband & the husband now have put me through just seem to prove he was right all along. Men just have to hurt me. They don't seem to know how to love me. Maybe I don't even know what love is! I am so confused. So tired of hurting. I just want for someone to really love me. Thanks for responding to my post. Take care of yourself.