My step-dad did things to me that i didn't want him to. Now i have to live with it and im finding it real hard, real hard. I thought when it stopped i would be ok but it isn't ok and it wont ever be again, i cant sleep anymore and when i do i get woken by nightmares of it happening all over again and again. Life doesn't feel good anymore, i don't want to be around my friends, school sucks and i want out. i remember when i was real little and couldn't wait to start each and every day, but now i just don't want to do anything. I can't even put what i feel into words, guess i just feel BADDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! all the time. What the hell did i do to deserve this? How do i forget it all and move on? i just want my old life back, the one where i felt safe, happy, loved and worthwhile.