what isn't coming back at this time????
we have so many alters freaking and memories that made me angry
i think that being in t with a good therapist is making loads come out and she is trying to go very slow
she also changed our meds...seroquel to Geodon
is anyone else taking that?????
we are crying, feeling shame, anger and forgiveness all at the same time.
each night, we just shake with fear because our dreams aren't making any sense...at least not to me.
a friend and i have decided to do special things tomorrow and Sunday for our littles so to take mine's minds off of the holiday.
we're coloring easter eggs and making place mats and then the boys have action figures and we may go to a ball game from spring training out here...keeping busy!
Sunday, we have decided to give the littles an Easter basket from each of us...one from me to theirs and the same for ours...then, we're going to the haulocaust museum which is celebrating homosexuals that died for this horrible deed. after, we are hoping to go to the beach if we can fight off spring breakers around here.
it's nice to have someone to "DO" stuff with that understands...somewhat.
but, i can't help the shaking and memories surfacing...little pictures inside and rocking ones i never rocked before.
i'm gonna ask that my insiders feel comfortable to leave the bad junk here for a few days