I guess I'm just kinda bogged down right now. The past four years of work with T are kinda coming to some sort of major THING right now, I can't say "culminating" because that would insinuate a conclusion and that's not what this is all about. And I have no way of knowing what we will have coming out the other end of this. It's an attempt to deal. But my T is usually pretty right about stuff like this and she seems pretty sure. Time to take the leap I guess, and hope there is something to catch me at the other end so we don't fall.
NP
PS, I am feeling a little better about the actual thing now, I was pretty freaked those first few days but I'm getting used to thinking about it now.