I'm so torn and pulled and angry and sad and almost was in the hosp for a bit, but a good friend kept us out
We found a plethera (miss her) of t's to call and we have been, trying to find the right one...ours wouldn't stop lunch cuz we are temporarily switched to a different hmo for medicaide and she didn't want to be responsible
ryder...was cool about it and kept us together and we didn't get angry, but we're just gonna see her next month until we find a new one that deals with past issues
Saw a friend or an old friend having troubles and wanted so badly to reach out that we took a chance to email...this is the 2nd time we've tried to reach out and apologize for things we know we have done wrong to someone and so far, it's being ignored like the last person...it hurts, but I am going to stand before God one day and He will tell me that I am His child and that I tried to make ammends even when ammends weren't due and He loves me.
In the meantime, helped a friend to get to the hospital for 3 bags of fluied and meds to keep things in her stomache (fluids) and took care of her, making slushies.
We have it now and am not doing so hot about keeping anything down either...nasty bug.
But, most of all, with dating a little, a dinner party to look forward to, good friends and all, we still miss her and them. Why?????????
No one gives us that feeling of warmth and happiness and strength and laughter...we just wish we could feel safe. We've written tons of letters and can't send them off except 2 and we don't know if she got those. But just woke up from a very good and very bad dream about her and them. I am so angry and it shows in my dreams at people who have taken advantage of her and yet, the dream put us back together, catching up and it was wonderful.
Well, better get back to bed with another dose of anti-sick meds. the dream disturbed me.
Just wanna move into that little home up in the woods and wait....patiently until someday.
Hope...
who is keeping the name Hope
no one knows how to spell Riley and for once, we want a name that we don't have to spell
oh, forgot, my hair is so butch right now to get rid of that awful color and we died it a brown and now we have normal reddish hair...awwwww...just not looking femme which is funny
Savi, if you read this, reddish, purple on the toes and pink on the nails...hehehe