I am tired of people hurting me. I am sick of my life staying screwed up. I have been looking for someone to care & everyone runs from me. Something is wrong with me & I'm just worthless. I hate this pain. It's just too hard for me to deal with. I don't want to go on like this anymore. I want the pain to leave forever. I am no good to anyone anyway. Sorry I haven't been on but, I'm too depressed right now. I just wish the pain would go away. This past issue not only ripped my childhood away but, he has ripped my whole life away. What I let happen is horrible. I should have done something. I guess, I was too stupid to say anything. I had to let it happen over & over until I turned into this screwed up mess that nobody can love. I hate pain!!!!!!! I am tired of hurting!!!!!! Very little sleep, nightmares when I do, flashbacks. This is all my life is made of. I have no life. Maybe this is all I deserve. But, I want peace once & for all.