whys it all so hard....everything goes back to them, past ,present and future....hate the past....don't like living in the present and don't see no future, just the past playing peek-a-boo all the time.they paid to mess me up now i's paid to be messed up....where'd 'my' life go to......no dreams,no plans,just constant echoes of the past slapping me in the face......no-one can take all the hurts away from me...and i dunno how to give em up....theys me......my life.....no pain,no hurts=no me....like i know who i am right!!!!!!!