I can sure understand being confused about that. Has anyone from inside talked to her about how you feel about not being able to talk about those feelings you wrote about? Or ask her why she did not let any of you talk about the letter? Maybe se can help you understand if she had a good reason, or maybe you can help her understand what you need, kf she does not have a good reason. I hope you are able to get this worked out with her. And also, feel free to write here about your feelings if you want or need to, ok?