had new memries....about the abuse.
body still hurting...:(
i know is real
i know is not my fault
i know if i snap my fingers togehter...i wont wake up,it is true memorie
I know i did not deserve this.
BUT
why do i feel so shitty?
why i feel soo dirty...
why do i feel like it is my fault?
why i let this litle girl be hurt?
why i wasnt able to stop it?
i was sooo hoping that at least *him* didnt do anything to me...
I was sooo hoping he could of been safe...
I dont know how long or to wat extent he hurt me,but I know of one time...and is already too much....
why was i born in that familly?
is it true they say yu choose the familly to are born to??
if yes,it mean i should just shut up,and stop whining about this..
i wanted this...right?