sweetie, it sounds to me like your papa is just an angry person, and that is not your fault. I think he would be angry no matter what you or anyone inside did, just cuz he is an angry person. I sure am sorry he yelled at you, cuz I know it feels very yucky and even scary to be yelled at. I know I hate it when people yell at me, and sometimes it even makes me cry. And I can sure understand being scared of things, especially since he does not care and pounds things loud so often. I think if I were living with someone who is so angry so often, I would want to hibernate too so that I wouldn't get yelled at so much. I'm wondering jen, do you still live with your papa, or are these memories you have of when you did live with him. I hope you feel better soon sweetie. You are a very good girl and you do not deserve for him to yell at you like he does.