richard he puts a star on a ribbon round my neck its bit big and i not like it and try to hide it, he get cross with me and tell me to leave it alone and it has to stay showing then he tell me not to pull that face either you know the screwed up nose one .i go to the big dark room now and some peoples have black dresses on and one has a green dress and some ladies do look very prettys like from the television. i haves to sit on the cold table i know its cold because i not wearing any panties and its making by bottom cold it has candles behind it a lot of black ones and always one white one and i can see that picture infront of me of the goat then the man in the green dress he hits the big gold circle more times than i can counts i know up to 3 and it more than that and it makes a noise and he turns round and round and points a sword at the walls hes talking away to himself then he stands infront of me with mummy on one side and i not know who on the other side and he has a drink and so does the other person but not mummy and the green man he starts talking in his funny voice he say funny words like notahoa and gono and soba