I'm so sorry it took me so long to reply...I was out of town for about a week, but am back now. I know it is hard to talk about memories. I'm so glad you felt safe enough to come here to talk about what happened, and what you think happened. Memories sometimes do take time to completely surface....and you will remember when you are ready. I'm afraid I don't really have any advice on how to speed up the process, but working on knowing (emotionally) that you are safe now is a good step. I would suggest affirming yourself, as often as you can, "No matter what happened to me, I am safe now"....create that safe place within. I wish you the best of luck, and please know you are welcome to post here anytime.